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My plans for world library domination are proceeding as planned! I just met with our head of buildings and grounds, and all the physical moves I want to put into place are totally feasible this summer, and he agrees about the circulation desk going away. (Also, he had some great ideas for eventual furniture additions, and additional outlets, as I'd hoped.)
I am still having impostor syndrome moments on a regular basis, but really, all of my religious training in 'act as if' and 'fake it, sincerely, as needed' is actually helpful.
And really, the impostor syndrome stuff is not unreasonable.
This time last year, I was officially the library paraprofessional, in a subordinate role, not expected to be at faculty meetings, etc. etc. This year, I am considered an administrator, my income will have basically doubled by next fall, I have more meetings than you can shake a stick at, and I oversee a budget larger than my previous salary. To say 'dizzying' is not vast enough.
The good news, of course, is that I've been prepping for this for years, and had a pretty solid idea what I was getting myself into. And I know where I want to improve, and some of how. (And I have an excellent mentor, and amazing support from my colleagues.)
However, I do begin to understand fully why the Holmes=Rahe stress scale includes positive as well as negative changes as stressful. (My current score is 244 by this version which does the math for you, though later this summer, it'll drop to 173, which is a whole lot better and drops me under the 'serious risk of related illnesses' threshold for the first time in a number of years.
I am still having impostor syndrome moments on a regular basis, but really, all of my religious training in 'act as if' and 'fake it, sincerely, as needed' is actually helpful.
And really, the impostor syndrome stuff is not unreasonable.
This time last year, I was officially the library paraprofessional, in a subordinate role, not expected to be at faculty meetings, etc. etc. This year, I am considered an administrator, my income will have basically doubled by next fall, I have more meetings than you can shake a stick at, and I oversee a budget larger than my previous salary. To say 'dizzying' is not vast enough.
The good news, of course, is that I've been prepping for this for years, and had a pretty solid idea what I was getting myself into. And I know where I want to improve, and some of how. (And I have an excellent mentor, and amazing support from my colleagues.)
However, I do begin to understand fully why the Holmes=Rahe stress scale includes positive as well as negative changes as stressful. (My current score is 244 by this version which does the math for you, though later this summer, it'll drop to 173, which is a whole lot better and drops me under the 'serious risk of related illnesses' threshold for the first time in a number of years.
